I rather listen than talk

I've got to stop once and for all

Behind a smile lies a thousand sadness that's well hidden. They say that the strongest person is the one who cries herself to sleep and can still put on a smile in the morning. That's what i'm doing now. I'm gonna stop bragging about my bestf, for now. Cause i have many friends supporting me. Doesn't mean my bestf pushed me away, i have to push my other friends as well. Thank you for the support, really i appreciate it.

Right now i'm commited to my studies. I have no time to joke around. M8, which is my FYP, is around the corner. Gotta chiong all the way now. Life? Have never been this great. At least i found someone who have similar thoughts as me. I have friends whom i know will stick with me through everything. And i know my family is now 100% cooperating with my studies.

Memories are hard to be erase. That's why i'm trying my hardest to not even think of them. Distractions, yes that's what i need. And thank god, every time i feel like breaking down there's always something to distract me from breaking down. It's been 4 days since i last cried myself to sleep. The strength in me is growing. And it's been 4 days since i had nightmares about life. I've been sleeping peacefully this past few days, no more waking up every hour. I'm moving on, i know i'm moving on. I can feel it.

Alhamdulilah, i passed my Audio Phase and Class Test. I didn't come school yesterday cause i woke up late and i was lazy. So i only know about my Class Test result, which i scored 80/100. I know some of you would go, "Woah! 80! Clever siaa!" But sadly no, i'm kind of disappointed with my results. Nah this is just Class Test. I gotta do well for my Audio Exams which is much more harder than this. I don't know about my Phase Test but i think i score below 80 i guess. Cause i forgot to do something important, which is, to Bounce it. Damn, up till now i still can't believe that i forgotten to Bounce when the paper clearly state that i need to Bounce. Nvm learn from my mistakes. At least i passed and don't need to retake it. Thank god.

Alright till here then. Today gonna send my baby off to the hospital cause there's something wrong with the lens. Sigh, i'm gonna miss him. Hehs. Oh and all the best to those whose retaking Audio today plus to Vanessa for her test! JY! :D