I rather listen than talk

First 2012 post

It's the 17th of Feb, Friday and it's my first post for 2012. Have been gone for such a long time and a lot of stuffs have happen lately. I have a feeling 2012 will be a good year to start everything afresh, self-reflecting. I need to widen my social life. ["When it's after 2am, just go to sleep. Because the decisions you make after 2am are the wrong decisions." -Ted Mosby, HIMYM.] It's the thoughts when you're alone that kills. Over-thinking is just another way to make things much more worst when we're thinking of the worst case scenarios of life that we know won't happen but still can't help it but to think about it even more. All those insecurities and doubts that i've been having. I admit i've missed whatever that has happen in 2011. I may even have forgotten what had happened on what day but it's the littlest memories and feelings that i won't forget. I need just one day all to myself to get me back on track. I've been really down with a lot of stuffs, it's just my time to have an emotional breakdown. I need to let everything off, i've been keeping quiet for too long.

Ever since the girls have started working i have been hanging out with the guys almost all the time. If they are out hanging out or anything one of them will surely call me and ask me to join them. It was awkward at first being the only girl but as time pass by, i've got used to it. A temporary replacement as the girls are busy working. I miss where all #IamHooligansFamily hang out with each other and have fun and everything. So since i'm out with the guys, every little opinions or suggestions or advices or problems have been shared with each other. I'm just glad to have guy friends who are in the same boat as me. The problems i am facing now, some of them are also experiencing. Different advices from different views really help.

I've got accepted for Higher Nitec in Performance Production at ITE CC along with Ridhwan, Ikhmal and Salwa. That just makes my 2012 even better. Starting school soon. New friends, new lecturers and importantly new surrounding. Let's just hope i'll get along well with this new course. Set priority right first. Buck up for my gpa. No more slacking and no more taking things the easy way. Just because of school i had to reject 4 jobs offer. Sigh, but i'll know it's for the best.

One thing i have never stop hoping is for my uncle to be back in this industry again. All he have to do is to pitch a better storyline to the EP and i'm sure he'll get it. I just don't want history to repeat itself, he needs to find proper crew member. Everything happens for a reason and i'm sure he really wants to pursue his dream back.

Never judge a book by it's cover. A family may look happy but that doesn't means there are really happy, they might have a million problems everyday and they might know how to hide it well. I pray for a better day everyday, without fail.